It’s super easy to lie to others.
Well, some people pretty much suck at it, they start laughing or have that look that just lets you know that they’re lying. But for most of us, lying is simple.
But It’s really hard to lie to yourself. Oh, you can try. You can burry something so deep or just deny it until you start to believe your own lie, but somewhere inside yourself, you still know the truth.
Once you get a hold of an idea, a thought, realization, discovery, you can’t let it go. As Cobb said in Inception, “An idea [is] resilient… highly contagious. Once an idea has taken hold of the brain it’s almost impossible to eradicate. An idea that is fully formed – fully understood – that sticks; right in there somewhere.” And once it’s there, once you stumble upon it, you’re stuck with it.
I can deny all I want to those around me. I can pretend otherwise and carry on my merry little way while living in denial, but at the end of the day, I’m still just in denial. And as much as I’d like to pretend otherwise, denial doesn’t quite mean that I’ve accepted the lie myself. It more so means that I’ve given up trying to convince myself of something I know is irrational and stupid. I just prefer to not deal with it at all.
but that’s not healthy, is it?