At the time I’m writing this, that’s how long it’s been since my last migraine. About a month ago I was finally told that I wasn’t crazy…. the constant headaches I was getting weren’t good things. “Chronic Daily Migraines” is what he said. Yeah, it’s exactly as miserable as it sounds….. or at least it was.
If you’ve never had a migraine, first of all…. you suck and you’re extremely lucky, but secondly, you probably don’t realize the significance of going 3 weeks without having one. I tell you what…. next time you have, say, the flu or food poisoning, or something that really makes you ill, imagine sitting directly in front of a strobe light while someone drills an ice-cold rod (so cold it almost burns) through the right side of your head for about, um……. 4-6 hours. And now that you’re nauseous, nearly blinded by the light, and in agonizing pain, in addition to just feeling crappy because you’re sick, try to go to class, be pleasant, smile, and have fun. Yeah……
3 weeks and I’m a different person. No, seriously! Ask some of the people I’ve been around this summer. I’m happy, smile-y (yes, I just made that a word), more just laid back, a lot less irritable and judgmental…… and right now if you know me AT ALL, you’re like WHOA! that’s not her. ….Oh, but it is now!
Before recently, I couldn’t tell you what it felt like to not have a headache. I had just accepted it as my life. For about two or three years I was getting headaches on pretty much a daily basis. Imagine a typical headache. One that makes you stop for a moment and search for some extra strength Tylenol. You’re a little irritable, and more that likely you just want to take a nap and wait for the pain to pass. Well, this was me on a regular basis. This level of pain became the norm rather quickly. I got used to having a heavy feeling in my head where every tilt or nod would send a small spark of pain. Day in and day out, I had a headache. And occasionally it would get so bad that I’d have to seclude myself from the world and just lay there until it went away. (Once a full on migraine attacks, no amount of Tylenol can make the pain go away, and it hurts too bad to fall asleep) It was debilitating. Here I was, spending about 20 days out of the month with a really bad headache, and about one day a week locked up in my room with a migraine.
And I just can’t explain the freedom of being headache free. There is a lightness in my head that is just wonderful. I smile so much more than I ever have. My patience has improved exponentially, I don’t have to always be sure to have Tylenol on hand, and I don’t have to worry about whether or not this will be the headache that turns into a migraine. It’s a wonderful life after all, haha.
So what if I have to make some permanent or temporary lifestyle changes? So what if I have to limit my coffee intake to only 2 cups a day. It’s so worth it.
….. and I’m pretty you just wouldn’t understand.